Wednesday, May 4, 2011
8 Minutes.
8 minutes I can finish my lunch.
8 minutes I can finish my bath
8 minutes I can come to work.
8 minutes I can comb my hair.
8 minutes I can burn 40 calories
8 minutes I can read 5 pages
8 minutes I can think of 8 things to do
8 minutes and I finished this blog.
I know!!! That too :)
Love
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
TIME

That I have a silent war with a myme
"Never should you forget nor can you regrett"
It is always preset never for you to reset
Exams are near, only time left was to clear
With work deadline at five he dashes to it why?
But on treadmill for five he relaxes oh I cry
Some say "Time is on your side" , oh what a rumor
Cause don't you know, he has a bad sense of humor
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
DREAMS!!!
One friday, I was getting a ride home with my boss, when he started to share a dream that he had the previous night. He thought it was rather too bizarre to dream in such detail.
In his dream:
He was in this casino where he was alloted a locker to keep his belongings like wallet etc. But after much tries the locker did not seem to close up. So he decided to let the locker be, thinking who would be interested in his tiny little wallet. After sometime when he comes back to check on his locker, he sees that its has been emptied. This jerked him up from his dream.. A nightmare he thought and wiped the sweat on his brow.
When he finished his story, he looked rather shaken. I could tell that this dream had an impact on him. So I asked him to relax cause he was not in a casino and his wallet was safe with him. Soon my home came to sight , we exchanged good byes. Later I forgot the entire episode had even happened.
Next Monday, he was eager to meet me. On meeting he told me that weekend he was invited to a birthday party in a "casino" and "did not have his wallet on him", apparently it was in his house. I get it, it was not exact situation as in the dream but some parts were more than a coincidence. Later he also shared an earlier experience where he had dreamt of getting into an accident and few days later had met with one.
Now this makes me wonder. Do you think dreams are giving us signs or sights into our future??. Such a amazing gift to even think off. So if my boss can see future in his dreams, then I would say its a curse cause his dreams are never good.
Are my dreams telling me something too??
I have some random bizzarre dreams. As a matter of fact, I dreamt about a leopard early this moring. So what does that mean?? Will I encounter one? Or is it a symbol.

To hose the fire of curiosity, I googled " Dreams about Leopard". I realised people just key in (pardon my language) boat load of shit.
Mr A said: Dreaming of leopard is a sign of a visit from leprechaun. (You are kidding right??)
B said: You will be victorious and find a way to solve anything. (BAh!!!!)
I said : CRAP!!!!!
After all this I still refuse to deny it was just a random dream!! Now how many of you have dreamt of any in your entire life!! So if someone somewhere is trying to hint me a meaning into it then I think leapord was a bad choice cause I find it very vague..
So Lets give it a week now.. Today is April 26th so May 3rd will be a week. So if some leapord relevancy was found in my life during this period. Will surely update..
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Maneka Gandhi - AN OFFERING OF LOVE TO THE MOST DOCILE CREATURE IN THE WORLD
This artical is written by Maneka Gandhi. She is the chairman of Purpose of Control and Supervision of Experiments on Animals (CPCSEA) and has started an Organisation called "People for Animals". She is a Vegan.
I thought to mention about Maneka Gandhi is to give an overview of the content below. It describes the slaughtering of our GOD. Yes slaughter of COWS.
I have just copied and pasted this article as it is, because it touched me so much. And I am SHOCKED at the statistics she has provided. I did not want to re-write it because in doing so I did not want to cause any injustice to it. Her writing was conveyed throught heart. It touched me and am so moved by it, that the next best thing I could think of it was to blog.
Please readers. It is AGAINST our Hindu Dharma to even talk ill of a cow. A being so scared and so soft please please think twice. Pass on this article to all your friends and family.

Awareness was initiated by Menaka Gandhi. Let us continue to spread it around.
Picture Courtesy : Wikipedia.Please Read On:
AN OFFERING OF LOVE TO THE MOST DOCILE CREATURE IN THE WORLD!
By Maneka Gandhi
An offering of love to the most docile creature in the world!
This article is my offering of love to that creature which is taken at night, thrown on top of hundreds of her kind, made to travel hundreds of miles, pulled out from the truck by her tail as her legs have broken and then, as she lies there helplessly, is stabbed repeatedly and killed.
Your breakfast is from her sore and bruised teats. Your shoes are made from her dead body. Our government boasts that it is the largest exporter of leather in the world and the second largest producer of milk. All this from this cow who is mute, walks slowly, endures pain with dignity and gentleness, does not kick, cries soundlessly when we kill her calf in front of her and when we hang her upside down and tear her flesh off while she is alive.
What has happened to the spirit of India? When did our national character shift from wanting the beautiful, gentle and wise cow as our national symbol to the tiger? Is it because we are ashamed that we have wiped out the tiger population? But we have almost wiped out the cow population as well. An animal that gives birth once a year for four years only and whose sons are killed immediately, can she survive the leather industry, the illegal export oriented slaughter-houses and the smuggling of one crore of her kind annually to Bangladesh? No, a survey of a constituency of 25 lakh people in Andhra Pradesh found that there were less than 1200 cows.
The cow was considered so much the epitome of excellence of character and beauty that many of our names, and those of the gods are based on her. I do not know whether any names in any other religion are based on animals but the Hindus have dozens of names based on the cow: Here are some common ones: Gauri (as beautiful as the cow), Gaurang /Gaurangi (cow-coloured), Gopi (cowherdess), Gauhar (cow-coloured), Gaurava (cow-voiced), another word for glory, Gautam/ Gautami (comes from Gau Uttama, the best cow/ox).
It is not a coincidence that the Buddha's name was Gautama. Nandin is the bull of Shiva and his name means both son and delightful. Gavendra or bull is another name for Vishnu. Gauri is the wife of Shiva and Mount Everest is called Gaurishankar. The famous Gorkhas of Nepal, the military force that the British and the Indian armies boast of, are a short form of Gorakh, meaning protectors of cows.
It is not a coincidence that Krishna, the best-loved incarna-tion of Vishnu, is a cowherd. Gopala (one who looks after cows), Govardhana (cow incre-aser) are his common names. He proclaims: "The piety that comes from bathing at holy places, the piety that comes from feeding Brahmins, the piety that comes from giving gene-rous charity, the piety that comes from serving Lord Hari, and the piety that comes from all vows and fasts, all austerities, circumambulating the earth, and speaking truthfully, as well as all the devas, always stay in the bodies of the cows. The holy places always stay in the cows' hooves. O father, Goddess Lakshmi always stays in the cows' hearts. A person that wears tilaka of mud that touched a cow's hoof attains the result of bathing in a holy place. He is fearless at every step. A place where cows stay is holy. One who dies there is at once liberated. One who harms a cow is the lowest of men. He commits a great sin, as if he had killed a Brahmin. Of this there is no doubt. A person who harms the cows who are the limbs of Lord Narayana, goes to hell for as long as the sun and moon shine in the sky."
How many rivers are linked to the cow ? Gomati (with the mind of a cow) river is a tributary of the Ganges. According to Hindu mythology, the river is the daughter of Sage Vashist, and bathing in the waters of the Gomati on a certain day can wash away one's sins. The Godavari (bestowing prosperity) river has pilgrimage centres on its banks. How many States and cities are named for the cow ? Offhand — Gopalpur and Gopalganj, Guwahati, Gotegaon, Gondhia, Goregaon, Gonda, Gokarna, Kovvur which comes from Govuru meaning cow town.
The State of Goa is a short form of Gomantak (rich in herds). Gorakhpur is named after a renowned ascetic saint, Gorakshanath, meaning 'cow protector'. Godhra in Gujarat means the land of the cow. Even the gotra or family name is derived from the word 'go'. Gotra means cowpen, within which the family lived with its cattle.
The cow is in the Vedas as a symbol of wealth and light. Aditi, the supreme force of Nature, is described as a cow, and the supreme soul as a bull. Vyasa said: "Cows are sacred. They are embodiments of merit..." Other scriptures identify the cow as the "mother" of all civilization.
Mahatma Gandhi said: "I worship the cow and I shall defend its worship against the whole world," and that, "The central fact of Hinduism is cow protection." He called her "the mother to millions of Indians." Other mythologies have fairies and genii to grant wishes. We have Surabhi meaning sweet smelling, agreeable, shining, pleasing, good, beautiful, beloved, wise and virtuous. She is the fabulous cow of the gods, the daughter of Daksha, wife of Kashyapa and mother of Kamadhenu, the wish-fulfilling cow. She is formed from a syllable of Brahma and her daughters Surupa (beautiful), Hansika (graceful), Subhadra (auspicious) and Sarvakamadugha (fulfiller of desires) are protectors of the Earth.
By her docile, tolerant nature, the cow exemplifies the basic virtue of Hinduism, non-violence, known as ahimsa. In the Vedas, cows represent wealth and joyous life. From the Rig Veda (4.28.1;6) we read: "The cows have come and brought us good fortune, rejoice our home-stead with pleasant lowing. In our assemblies we laud your vigor."
In their Dharmasut-ras, Vasishta, Gautama and Apastambha pro-hibit eating the flesh of both cows and draught oxen, while Baudhya-yana exacts penances for killing a cow, or ox. Again and again the Vedas emphasize:
Atharva Veda III.30.1 "You should impart love to each other as the non-killable cow does for its calf." Rig Veda VIII.101.15 "Cow is pure, do not kill it."
Yajur Veda XIII.49: "Do not kill the cow."
Rig Veda VI.28.3: "Enemy may not use any "astra" i.e. weapon on cows."
Rig Veda VI.28.4: "Nobody should take them to butcher house to kill them."
Mahabharatha- Shantiparva 262.47: "Cow is called 'aghnya' or non-killable."
The Indian rebellion of 1857, the forerunner of Independence movement, started with the common anger that bullets were being greased by the British with cow fat. Thousands of Indians died rather than tolerate this. The term ‘sacred cow’ has passed into English language to mean an object or practice which is considered immune from criticism and to be treated with respect. The term now has no meaning.
Cow slaughter is banned except in two States: West Bengal and Kerala. But they have no cows of their own. Thousands of cows are sent there from other States to be killed. Mumbai slaughterhouse Deonar kills them illegally in the lakhs.
There are 30,000 illegal slau-ghterhouses stretched across India which kill them with impunity. Our government trains carry them openly to Bangladesh slaughterhouses. What kind of Hinduism is this that violates its most profound tenet? It is not going to mandirs that makes one a Hindu. It is how you live your life within its dharma. When the last cow has gone, the last Hindu will have gone too.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Just a HEY!!
I was introduced to the world of blogging by my sis. She told me stories of how people were rewarded, how it feels to pen down your thoughts. I really gave it a thought and after 2 whole years, now I want to be serious blogger.
So here I dedicate this blog to her. Also posting her Blog link here...
http://rekhasanat.blogspot.com/
All I want say here is PAH!!
I think you started well but now Where are you missy??
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Bheemanamavase or Jyotir Bheemanameshwara
Bheemanamavase has nothing to do with Balashali Bheema. Usually performed on the last day of Ashada according to Kannada Calender by women folk.
August 9th of 2010 was observed as Bheemanamavase by people living in Karnataka. It is also called Ganadana Pooje (Worship towards long life of the husband, not to be confused with Karavachaut of the North). Schools are also closed on this day because it is observed by unmarried girls and married women until 9 years after marriage. The significance of this day is to celebrate the eternal marriage and bond between Lord Shiva and Godess Parvati. Women pray seeking blessings for long life for their husbands and for everlasting marital bliss.
The vidhana for this pooja:
Early morning clean the house, shower, clean the front yard and draw a beautiful rangoli, wear new dress and prepare for the pooja.
First draw a good rangoli and place a tray on top of the rangoli.(facing east) Fill it up with rice and gently place 2 Deepad kambas or Standing lamps. It basically represents Shiva and Parvati, or Jyotir Bheemeshwara. To differenciate between the two, tie a mangalasutra usually made with thread drenched with turmeric powder and a turmeric root tied at the center to the one on the right with 3 knots, this symbolises Parvati. Also in the same tray place a Ganapati idol, along with,( if you have ) Shiva and Parvati idol. Once this is done, prepare a "Eidu yele"or five folds of thread, tie 5 knots in that thread - each knot has a significance (Sorry I will do some more research into it and update accordingly) and also tie a flower on to the that thread in the middle. This is tied to the lady on her right hand by either her mother or her husband but after the pooja. My husband was kind enough to tie it to me.
Since our pooja starts with praying to Lord Ganapati, so that everything goes fine without any adachane or hinderances. Once Ganapati pooja is done, Pray to lord jyotir Bheemeshwara with hyms of Shiva, Agarbatti, fragrant flowers and during which you also need to perform pooja to the thread with the flower, later Mangalarati and naivedhya. For Naivedhya usualy it is Kadaboos/kadabu, the fried one. Once the pooja is done, tie the sacred thread onto the performer's right hand (Done by husband or Mother). Later do your namaskaras. If possible give tamboola, filled with bangles, blouse piece, haldi and turmeric, fruits and flowers to one of the muttaide or married women to seek her blessings as well. And here ends your pooja.
The fried Kadabu is made because of something called bandara. If you have a male child, then make a kadbu with some coins in it and place it on your hosalu (entrance door frame). So the child smashes the kadabu with his elbow and pick the bandara or treasure. This is something to get a child involved in the festival.
Usually Indian Hindu festivals are considered boring and long. What people don't understand is each rasam has meaning into it. The above bit is written with little knowledge for which I promise further update will soon follow.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Slap against my belief.
I missed my writer's urge. A writer should have a drive in him to pour his thoughts as words. I have my urge today. I digress!!
I was chatting with my colleague, he is a nice guy. Helps me with work, defends me at times, is a good pal, has good heart and brain in the right place. Well :) In short a good guy. Also have to say a Hard core Christian. ( To be very clear readers, I am not religious, spiritual but not religious)
So I sat back at my desk and started thinking. This episode in friends was the one I was thinking.
Yes, Ross. I do not have anything against David Schiwmmer. But I do against the character Ross and his girl friend Mona. Arrrgh!!
Mona: what is this??? (She actually picks our Lord Ganesha).
Ross: its a antique from India, originally made in Kolkatta.

Mona is all impressed and places it back on the table. Then they start to fool around and accidently she KNOCKS off our Ganesha on to the floor. Ross replies, oh don't worry it was off of Pier one (a store in US, which sells artifacts) and continue fooling around.

HOW DARE THEY????
The lord we pray to everyday. It is definitely a slap against our belief system. Will I do the same?? Shall I place a Jesus's idol on a table, and knock it off with my boots and break it into zillion pieces? Casually say oh its replaceable???? (Am sorry for this Outburst Readers ) BUT I demand an apology. I am hurt. I feel miserable. I feel something was ripped off my heart and a huge lorry ran over it multiple times. Now its bleeding, crying for me. >I demand an apology I cannot say this enough.
How can producers or directors or the whole team not know this? Do I have to forgive them saying they were innocent or ignorant? I do not want to be that big person, to do so. I want the governments to be involved in deleting that scene. How is it that nobody has voiced it? How is it that it is not in news?? INDIA wake up!!!!!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Where am I???

As a kid I always have wondered in this body where am I?
It used to be mostly when I was in trouble for having not done my homework, or my mom yelling at me for emptying the whole overhead storage to water my darling plants. Always during this time, I used to be hurt, real hurt. Felt like everything is wrong, there used to be this strong feeling in me which brought this salty discharge in my eyes (thank you Sienfeld).So at this point of time I used look at my physical self and wondered which part of my body actually felt this pain. I always wished I was my nail, which I could cut off the next morning.
I used to look at myselft and wonder??? Is it my fingers which was feeling this pain? definitely I did not find me there. Legs??? no I did not find me there as well. How about my tummy? Thats where I feel my hunger, well No I did not see me there, hmm thinking to be smart guessed is it my heart? nope not there :( oH!!! mabbe my brain :)?? Nope!! did not feel like I was up there. Was it my eyes?? definitely not cause I closed it shut or mabbe my ears nope!! cause I could still hear these thoughts. So ultimately where am I?
I am 27 now and still wonder!! Sometimes when I am miserable I think of being my nose or eyes which just has to breathe and see. So that I don't get blamed for anything then. I mean think about it, have you heard anyone yelling at a nose saying,
Hey you NOSE !! You did a bad job. How could you??
Well it kind of firms my thinking of not being either in the nose or eyes. So "THE I" that I talk about is probably the soul. Is this what is called soul searching, in my case in the literal sense I am searching for me in my body...
On similar grounds, I have also wondered,
Is the colour I see and the scent I smell same as the next person??
If a human body is a combination of some chemicals then why is one colour which I may like is not liked by another?
Why is it that a dress I like will not be liked by others?
Is it because the chemicals in my eyes see red colour as blue and these chemicals in another person see blue colour as yellow and red as green?
Who can vouch that what I see is the samething as what next person is seeing? These were the thoughts I had as a kid and I still seem to have it with no answers :(
So when a kid asks me these question, for which I haven't found my answers what am I going to reply?
S and me have spoken about this. Sometimes he links these things to hinduism. Saying these things are felt by other people as well and Hinduism is mostly about soul searching and attaining Nirvana. If thats true then I am a true hindu with questions. Now if these questions have been raised during those times then where are the answers?????
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Stay at home WIVES. Why are we fat and frustrated?
This post is all about newly wed Indian girls in US, who have had a busy life before i.e out of college - campus interview - BAM Job. Now they are married to this handsome husband, living in a strange country with strange people on a H4 VISA. They miss their family, friends yada yada in short their life. This is a phase which will last with that poor soul until she makes umpty number of friends or she develops various habits. Bottom line, lasts for quite some time :( Pah!!
I have a latest fetish towards the name Praneeta. And after various arguments with S, we decided we will not name our child Praneeta if its a girl. ( I am not accepting comments of how bad the name is, if you have anything good to say about the name, please be generous in telling me how.. Nope am not expecting yet!!!!!!!! and yes!! its too soon to plan for a baby name.. moving on!!)
So here we begin,
Me samay hu, ( Do you guys remember this??, Am sure you do. Its the way Mahabharat used to start or was it Ramayana? Hmm well definitely I am confused now :(.. Ok ok!! I know I ramble. Anyways,
Mae Roopa hu aur aap logon ko ek kahani sunaungi, ek ladki ka. Praneeta.. <- Transalating I am Roopa and would like to tell you a story about a girl named Praneeta.
Curtains seperate and voice over the mike says..
Praneeta was the bubbliest girl in her entire class. Everyone loved her, everyone wanted to be friends with her. She spoke with such zeal and zest that anyone could have been intimidated by her. She was pursuing her post graduation. It was not that she did extremely well in education, rather she was an above average student. But there was something about her. She was always taking part in Inter college events, college sports, Presentations and more. Everyday she was busy and happy. When her HOD said have you decided about your career. She with much ease says,
"I have Professor and I promise rather challenge you that I will bag the first campus interview that we get."
HOD studied her and gave a smile thinking she is definitely ambitious.
In came an American company promising great growth, travel to abroad, nice salary figures. And voila!!! she and her other friend bagged the interview with flying colours. It was her last semister, she had finished her exams just a few formalities to go but her Professor said, you shoud pursue your career these formalities can be done on weekends. She said good bye's to all her friends and wished them all luck. Packed her bag, dressed neat and was at work. There she was loaded with work, since she was good at it, more came in. Poor soul had to work late hours on a daily basis. This did not pull her down, because she used to look forward for weekends. With her newly attained emloyment came money, which she lovingly spared some to her family. Bought them gifts, showered herself with new dresses, weekend outings with her girl friends,pizza houses, long drives. Family saw how happy she was but thought she was missing something. A MAN IN HER LIFE.
Praneeta protested saying
"I am too young, I want enjoy my life for sometime. It has been always busy."
Parents suggested with marriage you can have more fun. After much attempted efforts, in vain she gave up and they started to look for a suitable Groom. In comes a well qualified, handsome, good abroad setteled groom. Parents really impressed with the guy look at Praneeta and say this is it. The missing man in your life. She quits her job to spend the remaining days she has before marriage with her parents, 2 weeks later she is married and in a country she has no idea about.
1st week is spent in jet lag, unpacking, travelling, shopping grocery etc and now its time for the groom to start his job. So early next morning he leaves to work by 9:00am and IT HAPPENS!!. She says her goodbyes at the door and closes it behind her. She is dressed, breakfast is all prepared. Now she wonder's what to do? So she calls her parents, friends everyone and looks at the clock 11:00. So she finishes her breakfast and cooks lunch and dinner and tidies the home. Looks at the clock 1:00. So she finishes her lunch alone, tidies again 1:23pm. So she thinks well, its been a long day and takes a short nap of 1 hour. So its 2:30PM. Watches some TV till 4:00. Now she loses steam and calls her loving husband of a week.
Ring ring!!
Praneeta: "Hi honey" in all excited tone.
Pratham : Hey baby( hushed voice).
Praneeta: Watcha doing?? still excited..
Pratham: Work.. hey listen, i'll come home and talk. Been a little busy at work. You know, we were on vacation and stuff.
Praneeta: Disappointed Oh!! I understand and hangs up.
tick tock tick tock.. tick tock
Praneeta: its 4:12 PM.. Why is the time not moving. Oh well let me go for a walk, no better not because who knows what will happen in this country..
So for nearly 4 hours she wait for her husband. Occasionally snacking, television, computer. Basically NOT MOVING. So days turn into weeks, calls to friends and family became less frequentt Computer becomes her best friend after televison.On computer all she does is blog about cooking. and read blogs about cooking. By cooking experimenting more food, eating with her other friend TV, idulging in more tasting and growing that thin waistline. From size 2 she moves to 4 to six and now a big fat one 8.
She visits new neighours next door, and they sit with snacks and coffee, after their chat Praneeta gets up to go when the neighbour yells behind her hey next time you come over, bring your younger brother as well. Also quick question, is he available??? I have this friend who is looking for her daughter Hmpff!!!! .
Poor Praneeta walks back home flustered after telling her that Pratham was her husband and frustrated at herself. So next day she decides to hit the gym and shed those pounds, but since they have just a single car, she has to wait for Pratham. In comes younger brother Pratham.
Praneeta : hey lets hit the Gym
Pratham: I am too tired after work, lets do it tomorrow.
As expected tommorrow turns to months to years.
No wonder why , stay at home wives are fat and frustrated. This is just one story I have seen. But there are upmty number of storied like this. Girls gear up. Study, do something with your life!!!
Oh Praneeta, I wish you all the best.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Food - Why did it get so important in my life now?
Its been 3 solid years in this country. Saw nature, its beautiful creations, met various people of different colour, height and weight, ate a lot of different culture food. But was never satisfied. Is there a little dude sitting in my head forcing me not to like other food. Thats how S would put it, called the Mental Blockage (MB). Well I asked MB to shut and sleep tight. But why still there is no taste in food. Thai supposedly is a fine lovely cuisine. Then what did I eat, there was no aroma rather a stench, weird taste made me think was it under cooked. And yes sir there are things other than coconut. So which Thai delicacy food are "people" reffering too? I did not find anything there. When my friends say, "Yea! people say Thai food is good" which people are they referring too? And what dish were they reffering??
There seems to be a silent race going on. I am a part of that race too. The race is which Indian girl will get accustomed to the other side of the world and how soon? I seem to be running a real slow race because accustomed is the finish line and I seem to have just taken the first step because I still smell nervousness in air and see that the finish line as a dot from where I stand. When I visit a non-Indian restuarant I am nervous, determine at the first glance that I won't like anything and to top it feel that all vegetarian dish would have swam through a bowl filled with chicken broth. (No offence , Non vegetarians) So I sit at the table looking at the silverware and glasses. A picture of a fat man all sweaty and tearing apart a bird which once had crowed him moring and night and using the silverware that sit in front of me. I quickly put that picture in an envelope and send it to someone in Japan. So after that horrid picture, I am quite shaken and wait for the food. Once it comes, S seems all happy and can't seem to control his excitement to devour into the feast and me am clouded with thoughts. Fat Man, silverware, vegetables smiling with chicken smeared layer at me, Napkin once wiped the outsides and insides of the fat man sit at my table all come with lightening speed. A trickle of sweat on my brow.. S says "does this not look delicious"!!!!!!!! . All I heard was "this", this thing which claims to be a delicious entree, a chef recommended, yes it deserves no exotic name a simpe THIS is fine. I manage a smile and pick up the silverware. The only rescue measure I have found out is to gobble the food and pretend am too hungry and try and manage to finish atleast 1/4th of the quantity. S looks disappointed at the remaining quantity. I pretend am too full, one more gulp and thats the puke button right there.
So after that eventful dinner, I sit in the car thinking about dinner and how disappointed always S feels. I look outside the window, its drizzling, people are holding hands and laughing. I presume they had a lovely dinner. Not a fussy as me. Thats when I realised I thought I shut MB, but infact I know now that I am MB. How did I become him?
Was there an alien abduction done on me. Change was never a problem. I loved pizza, I loved Rajasthani, I managed to love noodles. BUt why had things changed. Did earth jump an orbit, is he turning reverse now? What happened. Why was it so hard for me to accept different variety, different style. This sleep that I am in does not seem to be showing any signs of leaving. Where is my handsome prince who can kiss me out of this sleep? Where is a person who can help me shed this thick blanket off of me.
Yes!! I realise its me who should do that . For me, for my husband.
Pregunta Rapida (Quick Question) : Whats the longest time a person has taken to adjust here?
Lingo - In my dictionary means - a phrase you see using many times in your life.
Facebooker and Facebookee
To shed my pounds of burden on my shoulder I write. It write thinking an audience who are waiting with their hands held together, with anxious looking faces. Well I know that it would be just me reading this blog and feeling good or would be forcing my husband into it.

Anyways, my thought for today has been this bursting read ink just dying to feel on paper since many days now. Well as I have mentioned in my earlier blog that I facebook. When I facebook I maintain this decorum i.e I avoid making bad spellings, maintain friendship with only people who I think qualify to be my friend (not accepting friendship who I think to be too vulgar, cheap and more.. Pssst... I still managed to get over 190 friends.. any hoo) and most importantly I avoid making any kind of oblivious remarks. By that I mean I do not want to start a fight, call names etc. So Since I maintain this decorum [I think] I have a reputation. But here comes trouble, my friend lets name her Obli is so oblivious of the public platform goes rampaging on all her friends (including mine) with the name calling. Idiot, Stupid, loser and other lude remarks. Which my sensitiveself finds humiliating and amusing. Humiliating because of obviousness of the public platform. Amusing because does she not know, thats how she is projecting herself?? Does she even care?
This got me thinking, Am I superficial? Should I accept her as the way she is? Or do you have to maintain a decorum. What I see and think is it decorum? Who invented this decorum?
Well my mind is filled with arguments, some saying accept her and also change yourself, don't be so polished. Other saying decorum is the way of life. In a society, be a part of it. You are by yourself not an entity. And a third voice who I think got me confused even more. What I think decorum, is it me? Did I create that world? Or is it the person that I am? So if I have to be myself on facebook, will I remain polished? Like I think twice posting anything on her wall, thinking of the lude remarks from her as a reply. Do anyone think like that about me or people are fine with me?
What is it help??
Did I shed my pound now.. Agrrh No. Feels a lot heavier.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Thoughts.. Who has control over them

How did they do it? How to control? Do they really have super powers? Or is it anyone can do. Mind as people have put it say has wings. It travels from subject to subject. Occasionally landing when someone jerks the hell out of you. So how did these Yogi's not think? It is umimaginable for me to think that a person does not think.
Time. I heard the other day on CNN that an average mortality rate in US is 80. So if I am in US till I die, then I have 53 more years to go. That scared the hell out of me. What the hell will I do for 53 more years. I had plan to quit working around 45 and lead a retired life after that. So essentially I have 35 more years of nothingness to look forward to after retirement. So suffice my retirement period I have to make all the money I can in these 18 years, cause so far I have saved none. And here I thought I was too young to even think about oldage. So my prime working age is going to be increased to 60 the pre-set government retirement age. So I have 20 years to look for retirement. Which means I have 33 more years to work. SIGH!!!!!
hmmm disappointed I shrugged the thought off and looked at this Medicine bottle sitting on top of my table. It had bunch of chemicals as ingredients. Which made me think, I am just a combination of Mg, K, Fe and more. I myself was a chemistry lab. So I have been sitting out since 27 years. The thought itself was disgusting. Come to think of it, we say houses are too old when they are 25-30 years old,paintings are considered ancient then why am I still considered young?. People are you kidding with me?.
An itch brought me back to life. It was the itch of a waxing gone bad. An amatuer beatician waxed all the hair and some Mg, K, FE etc off my skin too. So I am covered in rashes and I think, who said that only women have to have smooth skin. Infact women have less hair than men. Should it not be otherway around. Men have a lot of hair should they not be waxing? Why doesn't anyone say this in golden words.
Golden words. Who invented that silly "Golden words cannot be repeated". So you mined for gold, carved out the letters and now when I ask for it you can't create it. Is it how it goes? This did not make its mark on me. I am never going to use this phrase. Oh!! did u ask what?? Please I can't say.. "Golden words cannot be repeated". Nope. def tried it again. But definitely stinks. So how much is gold nowadays? I definitely don't like gold jewellry. On the otherhand
Mom-in-law loves jewellry. S keeps teasing mom-in-law that she is the most important customer for her Jeweller. Talking about jeweller's. My home (parent's) was 5 minute away from a jeweller. Oh!! the massive fireworks he used to burst during diwali. it used to be night times, air was filled with gun powder and noise of happy people bursting crackers and laughing and smiling. Roads used to be filled with people adorned in brand new dresses, nicely done hair. Oh the festivities in India.
Now I miss India, first thing I think about is my mom and dad. Our lovely home of 4. Contented and happy. My garden, my beatiful mango tree, my beautiful guava trees, my beautiful flowers, its first bud. Mummy plucking them to adorne her hair and god. I had full liberty to maintain my garden. Beautiful childhood. Miss my friends and the games we played ice-spice, kunta bille, joota aata, mane aata. Now I don't even know how my childhood friends look anymore. I tried to search them on facebook. Found few but did not find many.
Noise of door opening, S finished his bath. I check the time its been almost half an hour since I sat to laze.
See I have no control over my thoughts. How do they do it??. My thoughts just don't have wings, they go at a the speed of light.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Constipation
So was getting all bored and had to relax my mind went online. Found my dear (2)sister. She asked me what I was doing online and not at work. So told her about my problem. so she suggested Buttermilk with ginger. Hmm interesting. Since I was home, called up my (3)mom for some bonding time. She asked me the same question, Y not at work? So told her the situation, she suggested warm water with ghee, warm milk, boil water with pudina, eat radish raw. hmm homemade remedy is easy.
Later since the day was still young in India, called (4)mom-in-law. Well same scenario, Y not at work.So another round of suggestion warm water with salt, no aloo, peas etc
You see appearace is deceptive. You think am smart but :(.
So my elders suggested all these remedies and I tried them. Yes !!! all the THEM.. And now Lady diarrhoea paid me a visit.. OHHH mann!! tumble and fall down :(
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Words. Help
Its not easy to understand them. No don't get me wrong. They are not being sarcastic. Its not there accent. Its not there pronunciation. But its there watchamacallit. exactly.
All these new words "not in English dictionary' throws me off guard. But since I am fortunate to have lovely colleagues. They help me out. So I thought let me make a list of all of them and I will frequently update it.
1) watchamacallit - What should I call it(chuckle chuckle).
2) Dang - Bang or Bingo.
3) Humor me - no no don't tell them a joke. It might mean. tell me or Show it to me. Well to tell it in a context. I had a problem with lotus notes. Well it was not launching. I called up this tech support guy and he said lets switch on a net meeting and you can humor me huh!!!!.
4)my husband's fav- Are you done with your food? " No, am working on it". No they are not building a pyramid out of their food.
5) My personal favorite- Bajesus. Well Catholics are not to take Jesus's name out without using a prefix. So they call him BA Jesus.
6)Run by me - No no Keep aside those sneakers.. He means..Can you tell it to me.
7)Father-in-law's fav- Do you want some more curd? No am good. If you eat curd you wont become bad? ahmmm y did he say that? Question mark Question mark.
8)Its all BS - Bull Shit hehehe.
Spanish.
1) Asta manyana - See you tomorrow.
2) Dois Dois - nothing to do with our Dosa's.. Means god god.
3) Buenos Dias - Good Morning.
4) Buenos Noches - Good Night.
5) Buenos tardes - Good Afternoon.
6) Oso - Bear.
7) Casa - House.
8) Como Estas? - Mui Bien. How are you? - AM fine.
Rest in next.
Wats up?
So as the title says "Whats up". Well to be silly would be "the sky is".
And AM NOT!!!! hah.
You want up.. So here it goes. Apart from routine work in a beer company. Ahem!! Burp @@***** I have a latest fetish toward cooking. Thanks Mom-in-law. Its been a week and everyday I cook something new. Yes :)my inertia towards new dishes have gone poof!!. Well nothing of the exotic is made. But different to "Mr Tastebud or should say buds"
Since my now so obliging husband helps me in cleaning, shopping and even cooking (as I blog, he cleans the bathroom)I want to keep him happy. Heard somewhere that "pet kush tho admi kush" or in language most of you understand "To enter a man's heart is through his stomach" "????" yes its a tested theory.
So for guys who are thinking what I cooked. well Aloo parata today, South Indian pulao, North Indian pulao, Gobhi Manchuri, Pudina bath. Surprisingly all of them turned to be real tasty. (well told you was not exotic). Bottom line "Whats up" would be well happy and well fed Husband and Wife.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Going out of Business.
So I was thinking is this a opportunity or loss? Because Going out of business means good deals for good price "SALE" and Space Available means space to open a new sub-way, or pizzeria or any thing I want for a subsidized rent. On the other hand THE BIG PICTURE loss of jobs, no more stuff from those stores which I had cherished before or the deals which I might have got it because of GOB or SA which leads to "No Return" or "No Exchange".
let me list some stores that I know have gone out of business.
1) Circuit city went bankrupt.
2) Starbucks had announced sometime back that they will close some stores in NYC.
3) Ann Taylor also announced to close some stores(117 ?).
4) GAP :( as well.
5) 3 Manhattan post offices will soon go out of business.
6) levitz
7) Am watching CNN (11:39 am, April 01, 2009)Ali Velshi just said that GM most likely may go bankrupt - Chapter 11 (Re-organization of debt) Arghhhh
hmmm the list goes on actually. Considering we are just in the 17th month of recession and FYI The Great Depression went for 43 months...
WHEN ARE WE GETTING OUT OF THIS.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Adharam madhuram
Wondering how I got to know what those judges had decided??? My mom was standing next to the judges and was eavesdropping on theire conversation. Funny yea???
Composer: Vallabhaacaarya
Language: Sanskrit
adharam madhuram vadanam madhuram
nayanam madhuram hasitham madhuram
hrudayam madhuram gamanam madhuram
madhura dhipate rakhilam madhuram
vachanam madhuram charitam madhuram
vasanam madhuram valitham madhuram
chalitam madhuram bhramitam madhuram
madhura dhipate rakhilam madhuram
venur madhuroo renur madhuraha
panir madhuraha padau madhurau
nrityam madhuram sakhyam madhuram
madhura dhipate rakhilam madhuram
Gitam madhuram pitam madhuram
bhuktam madhuram suptam madhuram
rupam madhuram tilakam madhuram
madhura dhipate rakhilam madhuram
karanam madhuram tharanam madhuram
haranam madhuram smaranam madhuram
vamitam madhuram shamitam madhuram
madhura dhipate rakhilam madhuram
Gunja madhura mala madhura
yamunA madhurA vichi madhura
salilam madhuram kamalam madhuram
madhura dhipate rakhilam madhuram
Gopi madhura leela madhura
yuktham madhuram bhuktam madhuram
drishtam madhuram sishtam madhuram
madhura dhipate rakhilam madhuram
Gopa madhura gavo madhura
yashtir madhurA srushtir madhurA
dalitam madhuram phalitam madhuram
madhura dhipate rakhilam madhuram
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Stepping Stone lyrics by Duffy
Verse 1
I remember way back way back when
I said i never wanna see your face again
Cause you were loving yes you're loving somebody else
And I knew oh yes I knew I couldn't control myself
And now they bring you back into my life again
And so I put on a face just like your friend's
But I think you know oh yes you know whats going on
Cause the feelings in me oh yes in me are burning strong
Chorus
But I will never be your stepping stone
Take it all or leave me alone
I will never be your stepping stone
I'm standing upright on my own
Verse 2
You used to call me up from time to time
And it would be so hard for me not to cross the line
The words of love layed on my lips just like a curse
And i knew oh yes i knew they'd only make it worse
And now you have the nerve to play along
Just like the maestro beats in a song
You got your kicks you get your kicks from playing me
And the less you give the more i want so foolishly
Chorus
But I will never be your stepping stone
Take it all or leave me alone
I will never be your stepping stone
I'm standing upright on my own...
No I will never be your stepping stone
Take it all or leave me alone
I will never be your stepping stone
I'm standing upright on my own
Never be your stepping stone
Take it all or leave me alone
I will never be your stepping stone
I'm standing upright on my own
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
When do you realise that now you are a grown up?
Today : August 13th 2010.
OMG!!! This post was in my draft since 11/19/08 and many more of these from the yesteryears.. Will post them all soon.. Thanks guys for your patience.
Flip the page..
Does your age tell you that u r a grown up? or Do you just feel that you are a grown up? or Do responsibilities tell you that you are a grown up? or Do association or peer tell you that you are a grown up? or Grey Hair? what is that which tells you that you are a grown up now?
Mabbe an other hidden option "All of the above".
The thing which told me that am a grown up now, is well!! Something silly, Nooo actually something cute.
As a child I had loved this movie Edward Scissorhand. And that impression stayed on for a very long time as one of the best movie made ever. Until recently when my husband asked me to order some good movie on netflix which we are a member of now. So I remembered how much I had enjoyed Edward Scissorhand movie as a child so ordered it. I pepped up my husband saying, you will actually thank me for recommending you this movie and blah and blah.. (You know sometimes I can be blah)
Ten minutes into the movie OMG what is this? Am not enjoying this at all. Infact I started digging my brains to come up with counter arguments which will definitely happen with S. Am sure he will make fun of me. I rack my brains and come up with "I played a prank" but shoo it away because his counter argument will be much more stronger as to why would I go to this extent. When am having all these arguments in my head , S is looking at me and going hahahahah "You and your recommendations" :( .. Thats when I realised, The movie which gave me so much pleasure back then is boring me... Oh man !! Where did time go now?? Am all grown up :(.. Miss you childhood :( . I realised that I am one, What about you??
A day with TV
Being affected by the current economy and sitting idle without a job. Thought to dedicate a day to TV. Hmm I just did not realise that time just flies by when you are in front of it.
Early morning at around 8:00am I switched on the Idiot Box for some magical fun. Yeah literally. There is this show called
"Charmed"
about these 3 sisters "witches" and their everyday life along side with demons, goblins and angels. Its from 8:00-10:00am yeah 2 hrs of magic fun. From 10:00-11:00am
Ellen degeners Talk Show..
I hope I got her name right. Man she was entertaining with her tiny little game shows and her guest being themselves without any dialogue delivery. Was fun to watch her bring out the best in people. 11:00am came, time for some surfing so was switching back and forth with
"the view"
ie Barbara, Whoopi and three other girls talk about current affairs and have a guest who is involved with them,
"MTV"
some ongoing latest songs. Oh Now am a fan of Ne-Yo 'Miss Independant" and Lady Gaga " Just Dance". At 12:00 time for some family values
"Full house"
A serial about a father raising his 3 daughters by taking help of his best friend Joey and his cool dude brother-in-law Uncle Jesse. its about an hour. So after an hour of Full-House, being all touched and conscious about not giving my time to family called up my sister, mother and husband. So that was the break I took to cook, clean, talk and eat.
At 2:00 I was back. Now it was time for more magic. Since childhood I was into Archie-comics and there is a character in that series called
"Sabrina - the teenage witch"
who has magical powers. Based on that cartoon character there is a TV show which airs from 2:00-3:00pm. Its all about this teenager Sabrina who has to manage her day to day life with learning magic at home, learning physics, math etc at her school, boy friend and cheerleaders whom she detests. 3:00 -4:00pm was time for some news
CNN, FOX and BBC-news.
Here I got to know that a)Mr US elected President Obama should not carry his blackberry after he gets into the whitehouse for some security purposes, b)California fires are doing a great deal of damage, c)Automobile Giants GM, Ford and Chrysler want to be bailed our or else 13 million jobs are at stake and d)Weather will get further cold. After this heavy feeding on news thought to check entertainment again 4:00-5:00
"what I like about you"
is about these sisters Jenni Garth and Amanda Bynes where Jenni is in her late 20's who is looking for love and managing career at the same time and Amanda is a teenager who is going to school and having petty fights with her friends and boy friends. After that light comedy time for some kicking demon butt. Yes-
Charmed
again 5:00 to 6:00.
6:00-7:00 "Everybody Loves Raymond"
a comedy serial. Sometimes I can relate to my ownlife. Its about this Goofed up sweet character Raymond ,his wife Debra and 3 kinds, Raymond's mother Marie (character in herself), dad and Raymond's brother who is jealous of Ray for everything that he is. 7:00-8:00 Sienfeld. Oh man this is so hilarious. Its about this guy Jerry Sienfeld and his 3 unique friends and their life. I cant say much about this cause anything I say would be too little and wont do justice to the show.
8:00 - 9:00 Family Guy.
What can I say hahahahaha.. You should watch it to understand what I was saying. Its about this Fat Guy named Peter and his funny family.. Love the baby Stewie in this series. Hmm
9:00 to 11:00 watch news,
cook, all together. a)Learnt if the automobile idustry is not bailed put the amount of people coming out will be equal to people living in Kentucky, North Carolina and hmmmmm " fill in blank" . b)Economy just going down, Obama saying that he will do something with the economy in 100 days. c)Stock marker falling crazily. Sadest story was a second hand crysler being sold for $1. d)8yr old involved in killing and again e)weather "COLD".
11:00pm exhausted. What did I do all day? Just watched some TV. But still managed to watch
Sienfeld and Family Guy
together till 11:30pm. By this time my eyes are sore so fell asleep on the couch.
Today morning woke up. All refreshed and thought should I do it again. Do I have it in me? Naah. But one thing changed ie my opinion towards TV. Not an idiot box but a Friend :)because it taught me family values, entertained me for so long, told me about current affairs soooo am I wrong here?